Assalamualaikum, Peace be upon to you readers! Hello =)
First of all, I would like to say,
maaf sebab dah lama tak menulis di sebabkan kekangan masa :)I'm so sorry
Actually, I don't know how to start writing the post. There were so many things happens in my life now. Many things that I have to think now. There were so many things that I need to do. I need to handled it wisely.
For the past two days, I'm stressed. I feel bad. Alhamdulillah, that time, it's not bother me much. But, today is worst than two days before. I need someone that I trust and willing to hear my problems. They are there right now, but it is just me being too hard to share with them. It's hard for me to let it out.
So, in order to make me not too think about it, I'm here. Writing about it here. All. YES, All of it.
hmmm, how to start ya....... It's hard.
-> 24 - 26 June - I've a camp. PRS camp. It's really fun! Alhamdulillah. * the post about the camp, I'll write it here right after I've got the pic and the right time * It's just not only a camp. It's really different from an ordinary camp, I think.
Pada malam pertama, kami ada ceramah yg bertajuk khalifah. Ya, kita semua khalifah. Dan malam itu banyak menyedarkan aku dan rakan - rakan yang lain. Banyak sangat silap aku. Dan pada malam itu juga, aku berazam. " Lepas sahaja pulang daripada kem ini,
AKU INGIN BERUBAH !
AKU INGIN MELAKSANAKAN LANGKAH2 KE ARAH PERUBAHAN !
Ya. PERUBAHAN. selalu sangat aku sebut perkataan tu. Selalu sangat ! selalu sangat aku tangguh hasrat untk berubah. Lama sangat.
Dan di saat - saat ingin memulakan dan melaksanakan perubahan itu, banyak perkara berlaku. Banyak yang perlu difikirkan.
Tentang masalah keluarga yang kadang kala menggugah hati.
Tentang masalah pelajaran yang kadang kala membuatkan timbulnya rasa putus asa dalam diri. Tentang keputusan peperiksaan yang kurang memberangsangkan.
Tentang masalah keyakinan yang masih membelenggu.
Tentang kerja sekolah yang semakin bertambah...
Tapi, dalam banyak2 masalah tu, keputusan peperiksaan pertengahan tahun yang kurang memberangsangkan kerap kali menggangu fikiran. Ya, aku kerap fikir macam nii,
"bolehkah aku?", "bagaimana nii?"..... Aku juga tidak sanggup memberitahu parents tentang keputusan peperiksaan itu sebab aku tidak ingin sanggup mendengar leteran ayah. Yes, It sounds rude, but that's the fact. I'm just can't. It makes me feel bad. So bad. and it makes me lazy to study anymore.
My study is not okay. I have to do something. But sometimes I don't have the motivation to study. It is really bother me right now. erm, mohon jasa baik kalian, Pray for me ya? =)
p/s : Thanks to Amira Rahim, Nadiah, Ili, Azam, Zalikha, Anissa, Fathin, Ilham, Ashkin and all my friends who tried to cheer me up today even-though It's hard for me to smile today. =)
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